No turning back

Here we go! There's no turning back now. This is where I step completely out of my comfort zone. Yup, I feel it, there's fear in me as I write. This is how you know you're alive, your heart starts pumping and fear turns into adrenaline. Although I am someone who's normally an open book, the idea of publicly being an open book is a little terrifying.

I have talked myself out of this so many times. But, every time I feel God tugging at me and nagging me. Why? I don't know, but when the notion won't let go and you feel guilty for something your haven't done, just do it! I'm guessing God knows someone needs this, and maybe that someone is me.

I'm heading into the unknown

Normally, I'm a pretty confident person in what the future holds. Not that I am psychic and can see the future, I just know it holds amazing and beautiful things. But the last year of my life has left me not feeling confident. I experienced so much pain, grief, and personal challenges last year, and this year is already showing signs of trouble. The year still brought joy and so many amazing things, but it's hard to hold onto those things when you're being hit by so many waves.

Perhaps this time I will find peace in what lies ahead, writing, sharing, and leaving a piece of myself for someone else. I'm not one to give up, coward or quit because of fear. I felt God's push a year ago to begin this blog, and I feel it stronger today. There's no more time to put it off. I understand that now. I will grasp those warm moments tighter this time and not let the challenges of this year bury them. I will share them.

I'm ready!

I trust the women around me who have encouraged me to get to this point. They think I'm the motivator in their lives, maybe, but they are the motivators in mine. Just the image of these women in my mind erases doubt and fear. OK, that's what I needed! Now I'm filled with excitement to share my life and my stories with you.

I promise not to leave out the embarrassing parts, because let's be real, 50% of life is embarrassing and there is just not enough content without it!

I did it!

I finished the site and wrote my first article. It's short I know, but Rome wasn't built in a day. I'm ready to run wholehearted into what is ahead. I already know the year is going to have huge storms, but the sun will also shine bright. I AM a palm tree, grounded with deep roots, and ready for the next storm.

"The Godly will flourish like a palm tree"- Psalm 92:12

"They will still bear fruit in old age, they will stay fresh and green"- Psalm 92:14

My next article, "Counting Pearls", talks more about storms (sandstorms to be exact) and how to turn them into beautiful pearls.